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__**Fear Place Chapters 1-3 / pg. 1-21**__ Dear Journal,

Hi my names Doug Grillo and today my family is going to Estes Park in Colorado to camp for the week. And I love that place the wilderness the wildlife there's just one thing my rotten brother Gordon. He's older than me and he's always tacking advantage of that we are always getting in fights over the smallest thins so this week I'm erasing him from my mind and I'm going to enjoy this trip and that's final. On the plane ride there I had to sit next to this game boy geek Ronnie Beck who was smashing gum in between his teeth like a car at a junk yard. After awhile I was forced to talk to the little weirdo and I fond out that his parents are divorced and he's meeting his dad in Boston and how also he hates flying but he explained to me that a mans got to due what a mans got to due. that's when I thought there's one thing we have in common were both not thrilled when we find out we have to fly. That's when I experienced this tightness in my chest. It was a : high place a narrows path six hundred feet above a canyon The Fear Place. The plane stopped just like my heart we departed got our rental car and headed towards the campsite. when we arrived we decided to hike then set up camp. After an hour or two after looking at all the magnificent sights we realized that we were lost and the only way to get back was creep past my worst nightmare the fear place. No way I protested out there has to be another way I suggested no my dad answered. Alright I said but I'm never going to forgive you we began to inch are way thou the fear place. we were almost there and I just wanted to cry give up and go back but I wouldn't let myself do it. we made it. It was only when I let out a breath of air when I realized I was holding it in. As we strolled bake to camp I was speechless I glanced over at Gordie and his eyes were laughing at me. Doug my dad whispered to me do you want to try it again what suicide I announced the best ways to get rid of your fears are to face them. Never not in a million years will I inch my way thou the fear place I'd rather not try to kill my self thank you very much!

Sincerely, Doug

Fear Place Chapters 4-6 / pg. __**22-40**__ Dear Journal,

Hey its me again and today I was still a little traumatized by the whole six hundred foot crumbling edge thing but then today I got worse news, we found out that Uncle Llyold had just past away. He's in a better place now, and my mom is crying out in pain inside even thou it doesn't seem like it. While we began to walk to the creek to fill our canteens my mom started keep his memories alive by asking a bunch of dumb questions like why didn't we visit Uncle Llyold very much? You could tell that she was trying to hide her pain and misery in her heart but she has held it back well. Even thou I wasn't a big fan of Uncle Llyold I still felt sorrow. The only reason why I didn't like Uncle Lloyd so much was because he always try to fond everyone it really got annoying. Even my own father praised the ground he walked on. So now we were walking back from the creek after filling up are canteens when Gordie and I started to bicker and at this point both of my parents were thou with it. "Darn it I want this to stop immediately" my mothers voice shouted over the scuffle " I'm tired of you two getting into the biggest argument over such small things" my moms pain just broke out at that moment. And to be honest I was sick of it too. The next day Gordie went up to the National Forest of course I muttered to myself he always gets to do all the fun things I stay back at the campsite. I don't care I kept telling myself to keep me calm but actually I wanted to scream with frustration. That afternoon the ranger came up to us and gave us this huge bag full of great foods pancakes, waffles, cheese, etc. Yes really food I ate a small portions before bedtime. As I woke up the next morning I saw my parents loading up the car to go to the funeral of Uncle Llyold and from the corner of my eye I noticed that mom had packed her nice silk blue dress, they must have anticipated Uncle Llyold's death. And I had mixed emotions as they drove off on the trail road. That afternoon Gordie and I got in a huge argument about him eating cheese or something stupid like that which resulted in Gordie stomping away into woods.

Sincerely, Doug __**Fear Place Chapters 7-8 / p. 41-56**__ Dear Journal,

After Gordie went stomping of into the woods with half of our food I was left all alone yes I finally have some time alone but really I was as afraid. It felt like my brave felling I had from the plane flight had just been kidnapped by fear. I also can't understand why mom and dad left Gordie and I alone I don't know if its to teach us responsibility or to teach us a lesson I don't know but what I do know is that I was alone. After a while I started to glance at the fields where Gordie had vanished and I thought that I was going to get some more pictures to capture the day. So I grabbed my camera and notebook and headed of into the woods soon enough I came upon a rocky hill of course i thought that really put the cherry on top of the cake. There's now way I'm climbing this i could break an arm or crack a collar bone but like that kid Ronnie Beck said on the plane a mans got to do what a mans got to do. so I very carefully hiked up the hill one step at a time and about 2 minutes later I was at the top of the hill and the view was magnificent. On we go. as I was hiking I couldn't get this weird feeling that some one or think was watching me as if the dark dimmed colored trees were staring at me then roar a strong powerful sound wisped across my ear. OH MY GOD ITS A COUGAR. Staring at me with its giant eyes glaring at me as thou it was staring at me fear. As I sprinted back to the campsite I decided to to go to sleep and try to stop my fears from controlling me. As I thought it didn't work I had dreams not dreams nightmares like I thought that a cougar fallowed me and was watching over me waiting to attack. the evening I decided to go back in the woods to get those picture. Dumb move on my part. so I had to do ever thing the same cloths camera, notebook, etc. as I somber into the woods I had no sight of the cougar. but then guess who was right there the cougar luckily nothing happened but something could had. my only thought then was what if that cougar finds Gordie

Fear Place Chapters 12-14 / p. 79-101

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